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Written by Karen D. Swim
I sat staring at my computer screen. There were words there and many of them even made sense but it dawned on me I had absolutely no idea what I was doing. You see, I’m writing a novel. At least I think it’s a novel. Three days into this NaNo thing, and I came face to face with my utter stupidity. I am clueless. I laughed at my utter lack of knowledge. I had never studied character or plot development, had I? If I ever knew anything before, I sure as heck couldn’t recall it today.
So, I sat and laughed at my arrogance. I was writring a novel without a clue. It made me wonder how many other things I didn’t know. Turns out I know more than I think and I know less than I think. I became prettty comfortable with being stupid for the moment. It wasn’t so bad. I remembered the words of my Appraiser professor, “If you don’t know something, fess up and get yourself some learning.” So, I figured fessing up to stupidity was actually a pretty smart move.
Wiser minds, like Jamie Grove, had warned this would happen. So I learned from his words. Lillie had warmly encouraged us all to give ourselves to write absolute green dreck. So l learned from her words. I had no idea where this story was going so I asked my characters. Turns out they had pretty strong ideas and even introduced me to some new people. So, I forged on typing my sometimes green dreck on the screen.
The experience helped me see some other things in my life from a new perspective. I grew excited, as I looked at my marketing plan and admitted my stupidity. I went in search of knowledge to learn what I did not know or to relearn what I knew in a new way. Things I had once ignored suddenly appealed to me. I was stupid and my resistance was gone. I became energized as I sought to fill in those empty spaces.
At the end of the day, a friend came to me and declared she needed my help. I laughed at the irony and gladly filled in her empty spaces.
Have you ever come face to face with your lack of knowledge? How did it make you feel?